Teaches: The Steps of Transcendence (pt. 3)
This blog entry is one part of a series of three conversations that I had with my ex Ria Yoshida. The conversation was forwarded (via myspace mail) to others either because I thought they would find it interesting, or because they were going through something similar. That eventually became tedious, so I decided to post it as a blog entry. However, this entry is not meant for public consumption. It is a tailored technique.
Whenever I am guiding, I conform to the person I’m speaking to. Sometimes I’ll be passive, other times forceful. With it being customized, the information contained may serve no purpose to you. On the contrary, if when reading this entry it strikes a chord, resonates, or causes you to reflect / introspect I recommend that you do not read it out of sequence nor consecutively (the conversations are progressive). Give it time to settle before moving onto the next.
The conversations take place within four days. However, adhering to the four days isn’t necessary. Though I do recommend that you read part two no sooner than the day after you read part one, and part three a day after part two (preferrably a few days). Upon completion, if you’d like … I am open to discuss it further. However, at the end of the series there will be links and other relevant information if you desire to pursue it independently. Anyway, I hope you at least enjoy the read. Later.
- Prasand J.
Segment: Worth Defined … Day 3.
Session Start (Prasand J.:Ria Yoshida): Sun Nov 18 18:43:26 2007
[06:43:33 PM] Ria Yoshida: ooble ooble aiiiighba
[06:43:33 PM] *** Auto-response sent to Ria Yoshida: “The search for perfection ends the moment it begins.” -Prasand
[07:17:29 PM] Ria Yoshida: Auto-reply: I am away from my computer.
[07:17:32 PM] Prasand J.: derelict
[08:01:38 PM] Ria Yoshida: I swear I’m not a smoker
[08:01:41 PM] Ria Yoshida: I didn’t just buy another pack of black and miles
[08:01:48 PM] Ria Yoshida: and smoke 5 of them in 3 days
[08:01:50 PM] Ria Yoshida: :x
[08:02:04 PM] Ria Yoshida: *inhale*
[08:02:11 PM] Ria Yoshida: *holds it*
[08:02:13 PM] Prasand J.: lmfao
[08:02:16 PM] Prasand J.: you smoke more than me
[08:02:16 PM] Ria Yoshida: *exhale*
[08:02:21 PM] Ria Yoshida: way too much enjoyment
[08:02:36 PM] Prasand J.: you’re really smoking right now?
[08:02:48 PM] Ria Yoshida: <— obsessive
[08:02:58 PM] Ria Yoshida: not right now… but just did :P
[08:03:05 PM] Prasand J.: lol
[08:03:09 PM] Prasand J.: out the window?
[08:03:16 PM] Ria Yoshida: went for a walk
[08:03:20 PM] Prasand J.: oh k
[08:03:25 PM] Ria Yoshida: had to get some tights for work tomorrow
[08:03:33 PM] Prasand J.: do you ever do it out the window?
[08:03:41 PM] Ria Yoshida: I was dog sitting at my cousins’ in DUMBO
[08:03:50 PM] Ria Yoshida: and did while walking Bandit
[08:04:08 PM] Ria Yoshida: haven’t smoked here except weed
[08:04:11 PM] Ria Yoshida: :P
[08:04:15 PM] Prasand J.: lol
[08:04:20 PM] Ria Yoshida: hung out with Stacy
[08:04:23 PM] Ria Yoshida: she’s cool
[08:04:32 PM] Prasand J.: how cool?
[08:04:32 PM] Ria Yoshida: came over to DUMBO apt
[08:04:41 PM] Ria Yoshida: laid back
[08:04:53 PM] Ria Yoshida: we were both tired from a long day
[08:04:58 PM] Prasand J.: good presence?
[08:04:58 PM] Ria Yoshida: and looked like shit
[08:05:03 PM] Ria Yoshida: as she calls it ‘poo’
[08:05:08 PM] Ria Yoshida: yes
[08:05:13 PM] Prasand J.: nonchalant … good shit @ looked like shit
[08:05:23 PM] Ria Yoshida: uyp
[08:05:26 PM] Ria Yoshida: *yup
[08:05:29 PM] Prasand J.: figured
[08:05:36 PM] Ria Yoshida: shes such a libra though
[08:05:38 PM] Ria Yoshida: lol
[08:05:42 PM] Prasand J.: I mean, figured she would be
[08:05:47 PM] Prasand J.: how so?
[08:06:12 PM] Ria Yoshida: easy going but than gets very particular about things
[08:06:22 PM] Ria Yoshida: lol… it was cute
[08:06:27 PM] Prasand J.: lol, cute
[08:06:28 PM] Prasand J.: yeah
[08:06:40 PM] Ria Yoshida: we’ll be chilling… talking….
[08:06:46 PM] Ria Yoshida: ‘it’s fucking hot in here!’
[08:06:47 PM] Ria Yoshida: lol
[08:06:57 PM] Ria Yoshida: chilling… talking…tv….
[08:07:00 PM] Ria Yoshida: ‘it’s cold!’
[08:07:04 PM] Prasand J.: lmfaooo
[08:07:12 PM] Prasand J.: that reminded me of tiffany for some reason
[08:07:21 PM] Prasand J.: Kristen isn’t like that
[08:07:23 PM] Ria Yoshida: that’s because Tiffany is that way
[08:07:46 PM] Ria Yoshida: lol
[08:08:33 PM] Ria Yoshida: haven’t really hung out with Kristen except for those times with you
[08:08:36 PM] Ria Yoshida: and via text
[08:08:46 PM] Ria Yoshida: but she seems particular about her boyfriend
[08:09:15 PM] Ria Yoshida: like when she was talking to you about him
[08:10:11 PM] Ria Yoshida: and how couldn’t really explain you to him…
[08:10:16 PM] Ria Yoshida: sort of… dunno…
[08:10:38 PM] Ria Yoshida: is she a picky eater?
[08:11:59 PM] Prasand J.: I could’ve sworn yall smoked before
[08:12:04 PM] Prasand J.: I mean when I wasn’t there
[08:12:07 PM] Prasand J.: @ kristen
[08:12:19 PM] Ria Yoshida: we were suppose to link up but it fell through
[08:12:24 PM] Prasand J.: oh blar
[08:12:26 PM] Ria Yoshida: a couple of times… I think
[08:12:40 PM] Prasand J.: and are you asking about being a picky eater @ Kristen?
[08:12:41 PM] Ria Yoshida: like tea…. cook dinner….
[08:12:42 PM] Prasand J.: or Stacy
[08:12:50 PM] Ria Yoshida: kristen
[08:12:54 PM] Prasand J.: I don’t remember
[08:13:00 PM] Ria Yoshida: I already know Stacy’s a picker eater
[08:13:02 PM] Ria Yoshida: lol
[08:13:03 PM] Prasand J.: lollll
[08:13:05 PM] Prasand J.: cute.
[08:13:14 PM] Ria Yoshida: even my japanese grandma
[08:13:18 PM] Ria Yoshida: particulaaaaar
[08:13:23 PM] Ria Yoshida: October 19th
[08:13:24 PM] Prasand J.: so that’s why you were looking for Stacy the other day?
[08:13:31 PM] Prasand J.: cause yall were supposed to link up
[08:13:38 PM] Prasand J.: when you asked me about her email address
[08:13:49 PM] Ria Yoshida: I wrote her back on myspace but the shit kept fucking up
[08:14:03 PM] Ria Yoshida: and just wanted to respond… touch base sort of
[08:14:08 PM] Prasand J.: oh k
[08:14:25 PM] Ria Yoshida: and in it I told her to text me so I could save her number
[08:14:28 PM] Ria Yoshida: and gave her mine
[08:14:36 PM] Ria Yoshida: but than she told me you already gave it to her
[08:14:38 PM] Ria Yoshida: and I was like
[08:14:42 PM] Ria Yoshida: thats’ no surprise
[08:14:46 PM] Prasand J.: lol
[08:14:53 PM] Ria Yoshida: it’s kind of pras’s phone too
[08:15:00 PM] Ria Yoshida: I’m secretary
[08:15:04 PM] Ria Yoshida: :P
[08:15:24 PM] Prasand J.: did you say that or are you saying that now @ adlibbing?
[08:15:33 PM] Ria Yoshida: i said that
[08:15:46 PM] Ria Yoshida: she was lik “…ok’
[08:15:48 PM] Ria Yoshida: lol
[08:16:01 PM] Prasand J.: lol
[08:16:07 PM] Prasand J.: already told her that
[08:16:39 PM] Prasand J.: well not in those words, but broke you down to her in ways
[08:16:47 PM] Prasand J.: and the breakdown came with stories
[08:16:53 PM] Prasand J.: like when I gave her your number
[08:17:00 PM] Prasand J.: I told her that I told you to add her
[08:17:05 PM] Prasand J.: but you may take awhile to do so
[08:17:12 PM] Prasand J.: so she may just want to add you herself
[08:17:15 PM] Prasand J.: instead of waiting
[08:17:26 PM] Prasand J.: then as I started talking about you more
[08:17:35 PM] Prasand J.: I eventually also gave your number in the same convo
[08:17:51 PM] Prasand J.: stating basically that if she’s bold enough she should give you a call
[08:18:39 PM] Prasand J.: I always tell people about the person I’m introducing them to
[08:18:41 PM] Prasand J.: unless
[08:18:48 PM] Prasand J.: it’s someone that has known me for awhile
[08:18:55 PM] Prasand J.: and you
[08:19:03 PM] Prasand J.: considering I never really told you about the person
[08:19:04 PM] Prasand J.: lol
[08:19:18 PM] Prasand J.: always left it to you to figure out
[08:19:45 PM] Prasand J.: so anyway … was the convo good?
[08:20:09 PM] Prasand J.: and … do you intend to link up with her again?
[08:20:26 PM] Prasand J.: oh yeah the dumbo apt … is the dog house?
[08:20:51 PM] Ria Yoshida: yea, convos great… she’s awesome
[08:21:07 PM] Ria Yoshida: just texted me about the gay bar to go to tonight
[08:21:14 PM] Ria Yoshida: but I have to be good for work tomorrow
[08:21:16 PM] Ria Yoshida: :x
[08:21:17 PM] Ria Yoshida: eh
[08:21:20 PM] Prasand J.: lol
[08:21:29 PM] Prasand J.: so that’s a yes @ second question … good
[08:21:50 PM] Prasand J.: well not “good” meant “glad”
[08:22:13 PM] Prasand J.: third question *points*
[08:22:24 PM] Ria Yoshida: I have a new awesome friiiiiend :D
[08:22:31 PM] Ria Yoshida: thatnks P~chyaaaaan
[08:22:37 PM] Prasand J.: lol
[08:22:54 PM] Ria Yoshida: she’s normal to me… and I’m normal to her!
[08:23:00 PM] Ria Yoshida: we’re sooooo abnormal!!
[08:23:09 PM] Prasand J.: [08:20:26 PM] Prasand J.: oh yeah the dumbo apt … is the dog house?
[08:23:13 PM] Prasand J.: smh
[08:23:23 PM] Ria Yoshida: yup
[08:23:27 PM] Prasand J.: k
[08:23:32 PM] Prasand J.: didn’t know if it was another apt
[08:23:35 PM] Ria Yoshida: lol
[08:23:39 PM] Prasand J.: you told her that you have various apts?
[08:23:40 PM] Prasand J.: lol
[08:23:59 PM] Prasand J.: since when did you start calling it by the location?
[08:24:15 PM] Prasand J.: are you texting right now?
[08:24:42 PM] Ria Yoshida: yea
[08:24:53 PM] Ria Yoshida: 1 sec
[08:24:58 PM] Prasand J.: cute, k
[08:25:11 PM] Prasand J.: gonna finish typing to Chantida
[08:27:10 PM] Ria Yoshida: She didn’t really care about apt…. she’s used to houses and thinks NYC is retarded about renting for mucho $
[08:27:11 PM] Ria Yoshida: lol
[08:27:41 PM] Ria Yoshida: Chantida aditnhc oooochika bumbuk wak wok wooooo
[08:27:52 PM] Ria Yoshida: lmao
[08:28:19 PM] Prasand J.: http://a741.ac-images.myspacecdn.com/images01/90/l_d02d3b37c3c2d604f9f82fe7f14afd5c.jpg
[08:28:35 PM] Prasand J.: no way I’m letting another Sinee happen
[08:28:42 PM] Ria Yoshida: lol
[08:28:53 PM] Ria Yoshida: but ooooooooo
[08:28:54 PM] Ria Yoshida: @ pic
[08:29:12 PM] Prasand J.: http://a220.ac-images.myspacecdn.com/images01/88/l_f926ba3697ee0f6c840da550fde78ef3.jpg
[08:29:19 PM] Prasand J.: http://a376.ac-images.myspacecdn.com/images01/66/l_9569d22691fc9969748878d87567813f.jpg
[08:29:26 PM] Prasand J.: http://a232.ac-images.myspacecdn.com/images01/97/l_776d55f7dcab16471c8906b74c6196f7.jpg
[08:30:48 PM] Prasand J.: http://a417.ac-images.myspacecdn.com/images01/34/l_507b55a430888e3675dcec3eee7dcca8.jpg
[08:30:55 PM] Prasand J.: http://a551.ac-images.myspacecdn.com/images01/65/l_b4ecef9d9b34841dfa4fb13191b8fcc6.jpg
[08:31:02 PM] Prasand J.: http://a999.ac-images.myspacecdn.com/images01/28/l_09347171ca354276a6c8e28cf130a82e.jpg
[08:31:04 PM] Ria Yoshida: stacy said hello to you
[08:31:09 PM] Prasand J.: http://a893.ac-images.myspacecdn.com/images01/48/l_5b81c9499734d5e97f232fd65f817efc.jpg
[08:31:17 PM] Prasand J.: http://a937.ac-images.myspacecdn.com/images01/23/l_5bbf02a7d5df54372cf323eb62394238.jpg
[08:31:24 PM] Prasand J.: http://a621.ac-images.myspacecdn.com/images01/30/l_a6b62132ebeda5690119f95cb6e86574.jpg
[08:31:31 PM] Prasand J.: http://a40.ac-images.myspacecdn.com/images01/3/l_fbd1c9c1097b9499d0ce17f2e26d4aef.jpg
[08:31:33 PM] Prasand J.: done
[08:31:36 PM] Prasand J.: that’s all chantida
[08:31:41 PM] Prasand J.: tell her I said hi
[08:31:58 PM] Prasand J.: and that I gave her a thumbsup
[08:32:15 PM] Prasand J.: “he said hi & *thumbsup*”
[08:32:18 PM] Prasand J.: or something like that
[08:32:21 PM] Prasand J.: =P
[08:33:26 PM] Prasand J.: http://a763.ac-images.myspacecdn.com/images01/38/l_3d0e6b867cd6d05fd69c7a8fbdaab6f2.jpg
[08:33:32 PM] Prasand J.: http://a874.ac-images.myspacecdn.com/images01/55/l_ec1f2b2c93ce29cabba7141c5bc35da9.jpg
[08:33:50 PM] Prasand J.: http://a50.ac-images.myspacecdn.com/images01/4/l_bc4f7d5f31154c98ce3a001501f753c1.jpg
[08:33:58 PM] Prasand J.: http://a874.ac-images.myspacecdn.com/images01/55/l_ec1f2b2c93ce29cabba7141c5bc35da9.jpg
[08:34:04 PM] Prasand J.: http://a577.ac-images.myspacecdn.com/images01/61/l_bb9079e12bcbd26ed4e46eae42fb15e8.jpg
[08:34:14 PM] Prasand J.: realized I was sending primarily personality shots
[08:34:19 PM] Prasand J.: she has much range @ work
[08:34:34 PM] Prasand J.: can go from playful, to sexual, to professional
[08:36:10 PM] Ria Yoshida: stacy said: thumbs up? i don’t get it… i’m not that bright lol
[08:36:17 PM] Prasand J.: lol
[08:36:20 PM] Prasand J.: nevermind
[08:36:34 PM] Prasand J.: that was my way of saying “good shit”
[08:36:41 PM] Prasand J.: that yall hit if off well
[08:36:51 PM] Prasand J.: but it’s not that imperative to convey it
[08:37:55 PM] Ria Yoshida: i conveyed… she likes info
[08:38:02 PM] Prasand J.: lol, yeah
[08:41:15 PM] Ria Yoshida: she’s mixed @ chantida
[08:41:17 PM] Ria Yoshida: ?
[08:41:25 PM] Ria Yoshida: prrrrrrrrrretty
[08:44:01 PM] Prasand J.: yes, Thai primarily … but also french, Japanese, and other
[08:45:10 PM] Ria Yoshida: oh those asians love getting busy with the none ones
[08:46:09 PM] Prasand J.: that sentence made no sense
[08:46:19 PM] Prasand J.: I re-read it a few times
[08:46:48 PM] Prasand J.: “the none ones”?
[08:47:57 PM] Ria Yoshida: mixed= asians getting busy with it with the non-asians
[08:47:58 PM] Ria Yoshida: lol
[08:48:17 PM] Prasand J.: k @ non-asian
[08:48:35 PM] Ria Yoshida: ria makes sense to ria
[08:48:37 PM] Ria Yoshida: :D
[08:48:40 PM] Prasand J.: lol
[08:48:49 PM] Ria Yoshida: as you put it…
[08:49:06 PM] Ria Yoshida: ……my mouth wants black and miles :((((((((((((
[08:49:11 PM] Ria Yoshida: ………yuck!
[08:49:17 PM] Prasand J.: lol
[08:49:29 PM] Prasand J.: Tiffany knows you smoke now?
[08:49:34 PM] Ria Yoshida: noooooooooooo
[08:49:37 PM] Prasand J.: lmfao
[08:49:37 PM] Ria Yoshida: she’ll kill me
[08:49:41 PM] Prasand J.: pussy
[08:49:41 PM] Ria Yoshida: !!
[08:49:44 PM] Ria Yoshida: lol
[08:50:01 PM] Ria Yoshida: and i don’t smoke now prasand!
[08:50:09 PM] Ria Yoshida: i just enjoy a cigar… now and than
[08:50:16 PM] Prasand J.: lol
[08:50:47 PM] Prasand J.: have you smoked weed then smoked a black?
[08:51:12 PM] Prasand J.: hrm, does Stacy smoke?
[08:51:58 PM] Ria Yoshida: she quit
[08:52:04 PM] Ria Yoshida: played volleyball through college
[08:52:09 PM] Ria Yoshida: and stopped
[08:52:19 PM] Ria Yoshida: nope @ weed than a black
[08:52:37 PM] Ria Yoshida: but oooooooooo
[08:52:41 PM] Ria Yoshida: lol :P
[08:53:01 PM] Prasand J.: it’ll happen when you smoke weed
[08:53:09 PM] Prasand J.: you’ll crave a more satisfying smoke
[08:53:19 PM] Prasand J.: weed isn’t satisfying but makes one feel good
[08:53:35 PM] Prasand J.: so most people I know that smoke weed
[08:53:37 PM] Prasand J.: and are smokers
[08:53:50 PM] Prasand J.: they either smoke a stoge, or black afterwards (sometimes during)
[08:54:01 PM] Ria Yoshida: yea
[08:54:06 PM] Ria Yoshida: aya does that
[08:54:07 PM] Ria Yoshida: eh
[08:54:12 PM] Prasand J.: lol
[08:54:14 PM] Ria Yoshida: o… i did that in cali
[08:54:15 PM] Ria Yoshida: lol
[08:54:19 PM] Prasand J.: stoge or black?
[08:54:24 PM] Ria Yoshida: on family trip
[08:54:31 PM] Ria Yoshida: had my first *gasp*
[08:54:33 PM] Ria Yoshida: cigarette
[08:54:36 PM] Ria Yoshida: djfhkdjhfkdsjhf
[08:54:39 PM] Prasand J.: =D
[08:54:41 PM] Ria Yoshida: but i was hiiiiiiiigh
[08:54:42 PM] Prasand J.: lollllll
[08:54:42 PM] Ria Yoshida: lol
[08:54:52 PM] Ria Yoshida: i didn’t know what i was doing
[08:54:53 PM] Prasand J.: aya smokes newports?
[08:54:54 PM] Ria Yoshida: ?!?!
[08:55:05 PM] Ria Yoshida: aya smokes all of the above except crack
[08:55:08 PM] Ria Yoshida: i think :x
[08:55:09 PM] Ria Yoshida: lol
[08:55:16 PM] Prasand J.: lol
[08:55:23 PM] Prasand J.: what brand was she smoking?
[08:55:28 PM] Ria Yoshida: nah, aya smokes camels
[08:55:30 PM] Ria Yoshida: i think?
[08:55:34 PM] Prasand J.: wtf
[08:55:42 PM] Prasand J.: yeah she picked that up from her friends in college
[08:55:43 PM] Prasand J.: lol
[08:55:49 PM] Ria Yoshida: the cigarette I had was really thin
[08:55:52 PM] Ria Yoshida: and lady like :)
[08:56:04 PM] Ria Yoshida: it was my mom’s cousin’s crazy wifes’
[08:56:06 PM] Ria Yoshida: lol
[08:56:07 PM] Prasand J.: probably just thin cause you’re used to blacks
[08:56:09 PM] Prasand J.: lol
[08:56:09 PM] Ria Yoshida: jews!
[08:56:11 PM] Prasand J.: oh k
[08:56:23 PM] Ria Yoshida: the slim women cigarettes
[08:56:27 PM] Ria Yoshida: forget the name
[08:56:59 PM] Prasand J.: btw … you remember why she quit
[08:57:01 PM] Prasand J.: =D
[08:57:03 PM] Prasand J.: lol
[08:57:13 PM] Prasand J.: good shit, you were paying attention
[08:57:52 PM] Prasand J.: <— loves living vacariously through the people he cares about
[08:57:54 PM] Prasand J.: for me
[08:57:57 PM] Prasand J.: everything’s redundant
[08:57:59 PM] Prasand J.: but
[08:58:08 PM] Prasand J.: when someone I care about experiences something for the first time
[08:58:11 PM] Prasand J.: I get excited
[08:58:14 PM] Prasand J.: and happy
[08:58:27 PM] Prasand J.: like I’m actually experiencing it for the first time
[08:59:30 PM] Prasand J.: I’m back onto Newports btw
[08:59:39 PM] Prasand J.: I smoke a box a week
[09:00:22 PM] Prasand J.: the number of times a day I smoke is still consistent
[09:00:32 PM] Prasand J.: just haven’t been smoking blacks
[09:03:16 PM] Ria Yoshida: p-chy~n! back on new ports ://////
[09:03:21 PM] Ria Yoshida: lol
[09:03:34 PM] Ria Yoshida: Prasand J.: btw … you remember why she quit
Prasand J.: =D
Prasand J.: lol
Prasand J.: good shit, you were paying attention
[09:03:39 PM] Ria Yoshida: about stacy?
[09:04:57 PM] Prasand J.: yep
[10:20:13 PM] Ria Yoshida: why wouldn’t i remember?
[10:20:41 PM] Prasand J.: because you often have issues with listening
[10:20:57 PM] Prasand J.: hence people having to repeat themselves to you while I was there
[10:21:24 PM] Prasand J.: a person remembers what they find to be important
[10:21:32 PM] Prasand J.: as such, you found listening to her to be important
[10:21:34 PM] Prasand J.: which is cool
[10:23:26 PM] Ria Yoshida: is it an excuse to say when you were here Henry was in my life
[10:23:33 PM] Ria Yoshida: at the for front
[10:23:40 PM] Ria Yoshida: i realize now… a lot
[10:23:49 PM] Ria Yoshida: eve nin talking with Stacy and telling my story
[10:24:03 PM] Ria Yoshida: it was the first time I told my story about Henry in a past tense
[10:24:17 PM] Ria Yoshida: and realized even more as I did
[10:24:43 PM] Ria Yoshida: she and I both agreed how what an idiotic situation it was and thnak god I’m not there!
[10:25:11 PM] Prasand J.: no, not an excuse … the reality
[10:25:27 PM] Prasand J.: the reality is … most people tend to put things on the backburner when they are in a relationship
[10:25:35 PM] Prasand J.: because the person they are in the relationship with
[10:25:42 PM] Prasand J.: becomes their highest priority
[10:25:49 PM] Prasand J.: I believe that’s the way it should be
[10:25:51 PM] Prasand J.: however
[10:25:55 PM] Prasand J.: as a consequence of that
[10:25:59 PM] Prasand J.: their relationships
[10:26:04 PM] Prasand J.: and focus tends to suffer
[10:26:14 PM] Prasand J.: they neglect those they care about in the process
[10:26:19 PM] Prasand J.: as that person becomes their world
[10:26:32 PM] Prasand J.: they expect everyone to still be there
[10:26:39 PM] Prasand J.: but that expectation is a bit unrealistic
[10:26:44 PM] Prasand J.: which is why
[10:26:47 PM] Prasand J.: when the smoke clears
[10:26:52 PM] Prasand J.: people usually aren’t around
[10:27:12 PM] Prasand J.: I mean, it’s not the case for everyone
[10:27:16 PM] Prasand J.: considering some women / men
[10:27:21 PM] Prasand J.: when they get into relationships
[10:27:30 PM] Prasand J.: they use that as an excuse to hang out with their friends
[10:27:31 PM] Prasand J.: even more
[10:28:06 PM] Prasand J.: because they’re trying to escape the tumultuous situation
[10:28:35 PM] Prasand J.: our perceptions of worth and values become skewed
[10:28:39 PM] Prasand J.: and priorities shift
[10:28:49 PM] Prasand J.: as do our motivations
[10:29:08 PM] Prasand J.: people are fickle in that sense
[10:29:12 PM] Prasand J.: their values, also
[10:29:23 PM] Prasand J.: which is why … having a clear perception of worth & values
[10:29:32 PM] Prasand J.: is essential to sorting out one’s life
[10:29:46 PM] Prasand J.: and things don’t fall apart
[10:30:05 PM] Prasand J.: since you have a good grip on reality
[10:30:46 PM] Prasand J.: just because someone we are with becomes a priority
[10:30:52 PM] Prasand J.: doesn’t mean things have to shift
[10:30:55 PM] Prasand J.: see with me
[10:31:02 PM] Prasand J.: it’s always clear in my mind
[10:31:08 PM] Prasand J.: that people are first
[10:31:15 PM] Prasand J.: and that whomever I’m with is 1
[10:31:19 PM] Prasand J.: it’s that way
[10:31:25 PM] Prasand J.: even when I’m not with anyone at all
[10:31:31 PM] Prasand J.: my perception remains exactly the same
[10:31:41 PM] Prasand J.: so when the space is filled
[10:31:44 PM] Prasand J.: nothing moves
[10:31:55 PM] Prasand J.: because that space was being held at all times
[10:32:28 PM] Prasand J.: I don’t neglect others in the process also
[10:32:35 PM] Prasand J.: because the reality is
[10:32:41 PM] Prasand J.: I include the person I’m with in everything I do
[10:32:46 PM] Prasand J.: so I do the same exact shit
[10:32:49 PM] Prasand J.: just “with” them
[10:33:01 PM] Prasand J.: going to see liz? we’re going to see her
[10:33:10 PM] Prasand J.: priorities
[10:33:25 PM] Prasand J.: get them straight and things become much easier
[10:33:35 PM] Prasand J.: but getting them straight is the difficulty
[10:33:41 PM] Prasand J.: because it requires facing oneself
[10:33:48 PM] Prasand J.: and seeing what we really value
[10:33:51 PM] Prasand J.: and what we do not
[10:34:08 PM] Prasand J.: putting things in order
[10:34:16 PM] Prasand J.: and making sure they stay in order
[10:34:34 PM] Prasand J.: but not being so inflexible
[10:34:44 PM] Prasand J.: one can have a good grip on things
[10:34:49 PM] Prasand J.: but still flow like fluid
[10:34:54 PM] Prasand J.: for example
[10:35:02 PM] Prasand J.: you know everyone in my life has a rank
[10:35:07 PM] Prasand J.: a position of priority
[10:35:17 PM] Prasand J.: when you’re in a relationship
[10:35:19 PM] Prasand J.: and as such
[10:35:22 PM] Prasand J.: are in your own world
[10:35:25 PM] Prasand J.: thus neglecting
[10:35:31 PM] Prasand J.: your priority drops, obviously
[10:35:41 PM] Prasand J.: but “until” that moment
[10:35:46 PM] Prasand J.: no one can move you
[10:35:53 PM] Prasand J.: only you can move yourself
[10:36:05 PM] Prasand J.: but I adapt according to life
[10:36:11 PM] Prasand J.: people don’t like to face the reality
[10:36:16 PM] Prasand J.: when I tell them that their rank is lower
[10:36:22 PM] Prasand J.: but it’s the reality
[10:36:29 PM] Prasand J.: furthermore
[10:36:41 PM] Prasand J.: you, like many others
[10:36:48 PM] Prasand J.: also don’t shift things when you should
[10:37:00 PM] Prasand J.: for example
[10:37:07 PM] Prasand J.: Tiffany is ranked high right?
[10:37:27 PM] Prasand J.: but when you have a person who’s more prominent in your life
[10:37:31 PM] Prasand J.: do you shift her?
[10:37:42 PM] Prasand J.: you hold onto yesterday in that sense
[10:37:45 PM] Prasand J.: dreaming
[10:37:56 PM] Prasand J.: reality mandates differently
[10:37:59 PM] Prasand J.: most people are like that
[10:38:05 PM] Prasand J.: when it comes to “best friends” etc
[10:38:11 PM] Prasand J.: no one comes before their best friend
[10:38:16 PM] Prasand J.: even though the “reality” is
[10:38:22 PM] Prasand J.: people are before their best friend
[10:38:45 PM] Prasand J.: when you sort through your priorities
[10:38:50 PM] Prasand J.: your values, and worths
[10:38:56 PM] Prasand J.: you get a better sense of all of those things
[10:39:13 PM] Prasand J.: and are able to apprecaite the moment
[10:39:40 PM] Prasand J.: your values extend to things outside of yourself
[10:39:48 PM] Prasand J.: but your worth begins inside of you
[10:40:11 PM] Prasand J.: the other day I said … that you define your worth
[10:40:22 PM] Prasand J.: but our worth is defined by what we do for others
[10:40:38 PM] Prasand J.: not in those words exactly
[10:40:41 PM] Prasand J.: but that was the gist
[10:40:49 PM] Prasand J.: who you are to the people in your life
[10:40:54 PM] Prasand J.: is a reflection of your worth
[10:41:01 PM] Prasand J.: what you do for them
[10:41:17 PM] Prasand J.: if we do not have a healthy sense of worth
[10:41:26 PM] Prasand J.: we allow ourselves to be in problematic situations
[10:41:42 PM] Prasand J.: because we truly believe we’re not worth anything more than what we allow ourselves to get
[10:42:03 PM] Prasand J.: that in a sense can be confusing because
[10:42:09 PM] Prasand J.: the concept of settling
[10:42:16 PM] Prasand J.: or being content with what we have
[10:42:21 PM] Prasand J.: “can” conflict
[10:42:38 PM] Prasand J.: but all one has to do is apply the logic
[10:42:56 PM] Prasand J.: “just because we are satisfied with things, doesn’t mean they ‘have to’ remain the same”
[10:43:11 PM] Prasand J.: wanting more
[10:43:17 PM] Prasand J.: is the presence of dissatisfaction
[10:43:31 PM] Prasand J.: however, this isn’t about wanting more
[10:43:38 PM] Prasand J.: it’s about facing the reality of our situations
[10:43:44 PM] Prasand J.: some people aren’t meant to mesh well
[10:44:02 PM] Prasand J.: and forcing it to be, can be more problematic than it’s “worth”
[10:44:23 PM] Prasand J.: we put value on things which should not have that value
[10:44:42 PM] Prasand J.: make a man who’s flawed into a god
[10:44:52 PM] Prasand J.: make a woman who’s broken appear whole
[10:45:19 PM] Prasand J.: what are you worth?
[10:45:23 PM] Prasand J.: a rhetorical question
[10:45:33 PM] Prasand J.: what do you do for me?
[10:45:39 PM] Prasand J.: another rhetorical question
[10:46:00 PM] Prasand J.: a lot of the things you do for others are superficial
[10:46:13 PM] Prasand J.: I appreciate everything you do
[10:46:24 PM] Prasand J.: because in many ways I’m a starving man
[10:46:42 PM] Prasand J.: but I am one who appreciates any bit of food I’m given
[10:46:47 PM] Prasand J.: and doesn’t just devour it
[10:47:02 PM] Prasand J.: I KNOW your worth
[10:47:06 PM] Prasand J.: but, do you?
[10:47:28 PM] Prasand J.: do you know mine?
[10:47:36 PM] Prasand J.: do you know Stacy’s?
[10:47:40 PM] Prasand J.: have you given her value
[10:47:42 PM] Prasand J.: importance
[10:47:47 PM] Prasand J.: is she worth nothing?
[10:47:59 PM] Prasand J.: understand your worth
[10:48:05 PM] Prasand J.: and you understand your values
[10:48:25 PM] Prasand J.: because what you are worth is a direct reflection of what “you” truly find to be important
[10:48:28 PM] Prasand J.: and as such
[10:48:37 PM] Prasand J.: will reflect the value of each person you interact with
[10:48:58 PM] Prasand J.: but, what do you do for others?
[10:49:11 PM] Prasand J.: and how much do you value those things?
[10:49:17 PM] Prasand J.: how important are they to you?
[10:49:43 PM] Prasand J.: how important are the things which are done for you?
[10:49:47 PM] Prasand J.: that answer
[10:49:53 PM] Prasand J.: will reflect or may reflect
[10:49:57 PM] Prasand J.: your lack of worth
[10:50:06 PM] Prasand J.: because if you value the things which are done for you
[10:50:11 PM] Prasand J.: above all other things done for you
[10:50:19 PM] Prasand J.: and “you” do not do those things you value
[10:50:20 PM] Prasand J.: then
[10:50:23 PM] Prasand J.: you are worthless
[10:50:56 PM] Prasand J.: but just because you are worthless
[10:51:02 PM] Prasand J.: doesn’t mean you have to remain that way
[10:51:04 PM] Prasand J.: as such
[10:51:08 PM] Prasand J.: “if” that is the case
[10:51:14 PM] Prasand J.: prioritize your life
[10:51:24 PM] Prasand J.: and adjust things to being the way it should be
[10:51:32 PM] Prasand J.: and do not sway
[10:51:36 PM] Prasand J.: do not falter
[10:51:42 PM] Prasand J.: regardless of what you go through
[10:51:45 PM] Prasand J.: or experience
[10:51:51 PM] Prasand J.: if “trust” is important to you
[10:51:55 PM] Prasand J.: then nothing in life
[10:52:02 PM] Prasand J.: can or should ever break your trust
[10:52:10 PM] Prasand J.: even if the rest of the world is lying to you
[10:52:30 PM] Prasand J.: and value those who trust you
[10:52:45 PM] Prasand J.: because
[10:52:50 PM] Prasand J.: they give you the world.
[10:54:10 PM] Prasand J.: I told Stacy that this was going to be our next conversation.
[10:54:21 PM] Prasand J.: a few days ago I think
[10:54:57 PM] Prasand J.: I told her I might make you cry in the process.
[10:55:20 PM] Ria Yoshida: lol
[10:55:30 PM] Prasand J.: cause I intended to be much more harsh about it
[10:55:40 PM] Ria Yoshida: smack me prasand
[10:55:49 PM] Prasand J.: lol, you masochist
[10:55:56 PM] Ria Yoshida: lol… seriously
[10:56:05 PM] Ria Yoshida: i’m tired of my shit
[10:56:12 PM] Ria Yoshida: and keep doing the shit
[10:56:36 PM] Prasand J.: it’s what happens when one doesn’t have a clear perception of their worth and values
[10:56:45 PM] Prasand J.: the only way to truly see one’s worth and values
[10:56:51 PM] Prasand J.: is to look at reality
[10:57:00 PM] Prasand J.: but one must be able to see reality
[10:57:14 PM] Prasand J.: which is why the perception of reality has a higher priority
[10:57:23 PM] Prasand J.: being able to accept yourself without ridicule
[10:57:34 PM] Prasand J.: because if you’re busy judging yourself negatively
[10:57:37 PM] Prasand J.: for the things you see
[10:57:45 PM] Prasand J.: then you’re not really accepting them
[10:57:48 PM] Prasand J.: and as such
[10:57:52 PM] Prasand J.: do not truly see them
[10:58:09 PM] Prasand J.: can’t sort through shit with blind eyes
[10:58:12 PM] Prasand J.: well I mean, you can
[10:58:17 PM] Prasand J.: but you’ll end up with a mess
[10:58:24 PM] Prasand J.: unless, you’re lucky
[10:58:39 PM] Prasand J.: take control of your life, your perception
[10:58:46 PM] Prasand J.: and then
[10:58:51 PM] Prasand J.: allow things to be
[10:58:55 PM] Prasand J.: and fall into place naturally
[10:58:57 PM] Prasand J.: oh yeah
[10:59:01 PM] Prasand J.: that reminds me
[10:59:10 PM] Prasand J.: you asked when does intuition come into play
[10:59:20 PM] Prasand J.: intuition comes into play when you’re able to trust yourself
[10:59:26 PM] Prasand J.: you’re only able to trust yourself
[10:59:31 PM] Prasand J.: when you have your shit straight
[10:59:41 PM] Prasand J.: it is then
[10:59:47 PM] Prasand J.: that you’ll trust your instincts
[10:59:50 PM] Prasand J.: what you feel, etc
[11:00:11 PM] Ria Yoshida: baby step… what is worth? value?
[11:00:18 PM] Ria Yoshida: who am ‘I’?
[11:00:33 PM] Prasand J.: who am I is a bit difficult to answer
[11:00:41 PM] Prasand J.: that’s not really a baby step
[11:00:53 PM] Prasand J.: for our identity is a reflection of the things we do, and perceive
[11:00:55 PM] Prasand J.: as well as
[11:01:02 PM] Prasand J.: how others perceive us
[11:01:16 PM] Prasand J.: you’ll carve who you are as you sort through things
[11:01:31 PM] Prasand J.: and people will perceive that sculpture clearly
[11:01:47 PM] Prasand J.: for example
[11:01:59 PM] Prasand J.: my presence and reputation precedes me
[11:02:16 PM] Prasand J.: even strangers get a sense of who I am
[11:02:21 PM] Prasand J.: and are either
[11:02:28 PM] Prasand J.: know they can trust me
[11:02:31 PM] Prasand J.: or know to fear me
[11:02:53 PM] Prasand J.: but the irony is
[11:02:59 PM] Prasand J.: after all of the searching and sorting
[11:03:08 PM] Prasand J.: in the end, you’ll be left with everything … and nothing
[11:03:20 PM] Prasand J.: for once you find who you are
[11:03:23 PM] Prasand J.: you’ll realize
[11:03:28 PM] Prasand J.: who you are isn’t that important
[11:03:36 PM] Prasand J.: what is important is
[11:03:40 PM] Prasand J.: who you are to others
[11:04:00 PM] Prasand J.: it is then
[11:04:09 PM] Prasand J.: that you won’t find the need
[11:04:16 PM] Prasand J.: to find worth in “having a job”
[11:04:24 PM] Prasand J.: or the superficial things in life
[11:04:28 PM] Prasand J.: but it is then
[11:04:41 PM] Prasand J.: that you become wreckless, with a realistic perception
[11:04:44 PM] Prasand J.: and as such
[11:04:52 PM] Prasand J.: “can” become more successful
[11:05:00 PM] Prasand J.: should you deem that’s what you want
[11:05:02 PM] Prasand J.: idly
[11:05:26 PM] Prasand J.: “ehhh, I’m bored … let me start a company”
[11:05:39 PM] Prasand J.: well not “boredom” per se
[11:05:42 PM] Prasand J.: but rather I mean
[11:05:59 PM] Prasand J.: it won’t be in the typical “because this will make or break my life” perceptions people have
[11:06:25 PM] Prasand J.: there are two kinds of successful people in the world
[11:06:31 PM] Prasand J.: those who are lucky / fortunate
[11:06:38 PM] Prasand J.: and those who are able to control reality
[11:06:46 PM] Prasand J.: to work in accordance with reality
[11:07:12 PM] Prasand J.: but understand success is what you perceive to be successful
[11:07:22 PM] Prasand J.: hence why I’m rich
[11:07:41 PM] Prasand J.: and find no need to achieve the myriads of things
[11:07:44 PM] Prasand J.: people subject me to
[11:08:12 PM] Prasand J.: I “can” but I simply don’t want to
[11:08:22 PM] Prasand J.: for me to make a million is easy
[11:08:28 PM] Prasand J.: seriously, easy
[11:08:44 PM] Prasand J.: you’ve seen the types of things I do
[11:08:55 PM] Prasand J.: you and everyone else who seen me move, knows it
[11:09:03 PM] Prasand J.: which is why they can’t understand
[11:09:07 PM] Prasand J.: “then why doesn’t he do it?”
[11:09:24 PM] Prasand J.: that the answer is
[11:09:34 PM] Prasand J.: “because I’m not discontent like you.”
[11:10:02 PM] Prasand J.: I have my values and priorities straight
[11:10:10 PM] Prasand J.: it’s just my priorities are not yours
[11:10:14 PM] Prasand J.: and vice-versa
[11:10:19 PM] Prasand J.: find “your” preferences
[11:10:22 PM] Prasand J.: for yourself
[11:10:39 PM] Prasand J.: I cannot define them for you, just give you the guidelines or direction
[11:13:47 PM] Ria Yoshida: :)
[11:16:08 PM] Prasand J.: finding who you are, will help you be better able to overcome your ego
[11:16:15 PM] Prasand J.: ironic that carving the individual
[11:16:16 PM] Prasand J.: truly
[11:16:21 PM] Prasand J.: thoroughly
[11:16:28 PM] Prasand J.: promotes, unity
[11:16:42 PM] Prasand J.: or rather helps one able to see clearly where to let go of themselves
[11:17:57 PM] Prasand J.: everyone in my life has a clear / distinct value … and I use everyone for exactly what they are worth
[11:18:08 PM] Prasand J.: for example
[11:18:10 PM] Prasand J.: I use you
[11:18:18 PM] Prasand J.: I used Stacy
[11:18:27 PM] Prasand J.: but what is she worth
[11:18:31 PM] Prasand J.: what were you worth in that?
[11:18:37 PM] Prasand J.: what was your value?
[11:18:39 PM] Prasand J.: your role
[11:18:45 PM] Prasand J.: what was I seeing that you didn’t?
[11:19:01 PM] Prasand J.: how could I fathom the potential of that interaction?
[11:19:12 PM] Prasand J.: was it purely intuitive?
[11:19:40 PM] Prasand J.: if it was, then I wouldn’t have laid everything out to stacy before it even happened
[11:20:27 PM] Prasand J.: people don’t like to be used
[11:20:31 PM] Prasand J.: but the fact is
[11:20:35 PM] Prasand J.: everyone has a purpose in life
[11:20:42 PM] Prasand J.: and are used in one way or another
[11:20:49 PM] Prasand J.: know each person’s purpose
[11:20:58 PM] Prasand J.: and do not use them for more than they are worth
[11:21:01 PM] Prasand J.: for example
[11:21:08 PM] Prasand J.: the fuck buddy that you want to be a boyfriend
[11:21:12 PM] Prasand J.: is where you fuck up
[11:21:25 PM] Prasand J.: putting people in roles they weren’t meant to be in
[11:21:30 PM] Prasand J.: and then when reality hits
[11:21:38 PM] Prasand J.: shit happens which was unexpected
[11:21:42 PM] Prasand J.: and you’re hurt
[11:21:46 PM] Prasand J.: distraught, etc
[11:22:00 PM] Prasand J.: I told you Henry’s worth long before I ever even met him
[11:22:04 PM] Prasand J.: however
[11:22:10 PM] Prasand J.: you found out another worth
[11:22:12 PM] Prasand J.: value
[11:22:19 PM] Prasand J.: appreciate things that happen
[11:22:30 PM] Prasand J.: for even though you put him into a role he shouldn’t have been in
[11:22:36 PM] Prasand J.: you learned from it
[11:22:41 PM] Prasand J.: he taught you much
[11:22:51 PM] Prasand J.: and to “me” that has value <br>[11:22:55 PM] Prasand J.: but does it to you?
[11:22:59 PM] Prasand J.: can you appreciate him?
[11:23:08 PM] Prasand J.: or is he only a fuck up
[11:23:16 PM] Prasand J.: is he only a cat with issues
[11:23:19 PM] Prasand J.: and a liar?
[11:23:31 PM] Prasand J.: you’re the one who fucked up
[11:23:38 PM] Prasand J.: accept that fact
[11:23:43 PM] Prasand J.: and don’t belittle him
[11:23:56 PM] Prasand J.: but it’s natural
[11:24:06 PM] Prasand J.: that after boosting him up to levels he shouldn’t have been at
[11:24:12 PM] Prasand J.: that when reality kicked in
[11:24:19 PM] Prasand J.: you ended up looking down upon him
[11:24:29 PM] Prasand J.: since you were at a level higher than you should’ve been with him
[11:24:41 PM] Prasand J.: that when you perceived where he “really” was
[11:24:46 PM] Prasand J.: it was like woah
[11:25:07 PM] Prasand J.: bring yourself down more easilly
[11:25:12 PM] Prasand J.: appreciate him
[11:25:27 PM] Prasand J.: and your perception of him will descend in a non-destructive manner
[11:25:37 PM] Prasand J.: otherwise
[11:25:43 PM] Prasand J.: you’ll allow your mistakes to break you
[11:26:11 PM] Prasand J.: for those mistakes will become part of your perception of “self” worth
[11:26:36 PM] Prasand J.: there’s no need for conceited perspectives such as
[11:26:40 PM] Prasand J.: “I’m worth more than that”
[11:26:45 PM] Prasand J.: why say it?
[11:26:49 PM] Prasand J.: prove it
[11:26:51 PM] Prasand J.: reflect it
[11:26:54 PM] Prasand J.: fuck talking about it
[11:26:59 PM] Prasand J.: be it
[11:27:33 PM] Prasand J.: people only say shit like that to make themselves feel better
[11:27:36 PM] Prasand J.: because they need to hear it
[11:27:42 PM] Prasand J.: since they “truly” think otherwise
[11:28:00 PM] Prasand J.: if you’re broken, fix yourself
[11:28:11 PM] Prasand J.: or accept your broken parts
[11:28:25 PM] Prasand J.: and you’ll still fix yourself
[11:28:28 PM] Prasand J.: ironically.
[11:29:16 PM] Prasand J.: if you’re trying to find your self worth
[11:29:19 PM] Prasand J.: ask yourself
[11:29:28 PM] Prasand J.: what do I do for others? who am I to others?
[11:29:35 PM] Prasand J.: what is my role?
[11:29:40 PM] Prasand J.: what is my purpose in life?
[11:29:45 PM] Prasand J.: or
[11:29:50 PM] Prasand J.: and / or … rather
[11:29:59 PM] Prasand J.: who are they to me?
[11:30:04 PM] Prasand J.: What do they do for me?
[11:30:10 PM] Prasand J.: Who are they to others?
[11:30:15 PM] Prasand J.: what is their purpose in life?
[11:30:22 PM] Prasand J.: is what they do for me important?
[11:30:27 PM] Prasand J.: how important is it to me?”
[11:30:37 PM] Prasand J.: can I be without it, truly?”
[11:30:49 PM] Prasand J.: if it’s very important to you
[11:30:56 PM] Prasand J.: and you see that you do not do the same for others
[11:31:04 PM] Prasand J.: then that is a reflection of worthlessness
[11:31:16 PM] Prasand J.: do that which you ask of others
[11:31:33 PM] Prasand J.: golden rule: do unto others as you would have them do unto you
[11:31:48 PM] Prasand J.: most people have no clue that, the rule if lived by carves values and worth
[11:32:09 PM] Prasand J.: it’s a rule I’ve always lived by
[11:32:18 PM] Prasand J.: to treat others the way I’d like to be treated
[11:32:38 PM] Prasand J.: to never ask for what I’m not willing to give in return
[11:32:55 PM] Prasand J.: because the things others do for us
[11:32:59 PM] Prasand J.: that we allow them to
[11:33:03 PM] Prasand J.: that we value
[11:33:12 PM] Prasand J.: we in a sense ask for those things
[11:33:19 PM] Prasand J.: just not verbally
[11:33:31 PM] Prasand J.: if someone takes care of you
[11:33:38 PM] Prasand J.: even if you don’t ask them to
[11:33:41 PM] Prasand J.: and you allow them to
[11:33:45 PM] Prasand J.: it’s because you want it
[11:33:54 PM] Prasand J.: you simply got something you didn’t “have to” ask for
[11:34:44 PM] Prasand J.: oh btw, get this straight
[11:34:51 PM] Prasand J.: one of those questions may invoke your ego
[11:34:54 PM] Prasand J.: and arrogance
[11:35:03 PM] Prasand J.: [11:30:37 PM] Prasand J.: can I be without it, truly?
[11:35:20 PM] Prasand J.: you may think, “yeah I don’t really need that”
[11:35:25 PM] Prasand J.: like for example
[11:35:32 PM] Prasand J.: “someone to talk to”
[11:35:45 PM] Prasand J.: “helps pay the rent”
[11:35:49 PM] Prasand J.: may invoke shit like
[11:36:08 PM] Prasand J.: “if I really wanted to do it, I don’t really need them to … I’ll be fine by myself if I get serious”
[11:36:11 PM] Prasand J.: bullshit
[11:36:13 PM] Prasand J.: straight up
[11:36:14 PM] Prasand J.: bullshit
[11:36:24 PM] Prasand J.: that’s ego
[11:36:30 PM] Prasand J.: the division created by it
[11:36:38 PM] Prasand J.: you are not an island unto yourself
[11:36:55 PM] Prasand J.: face the reality that you do need it
[11:36:58 PM] Prasand J.: or else
[11:37:02 PM] Prasand J.: you wouldn’t be getting it
[11:37:23 PM] Prasand J.: the question wasn’t really about “do I need it”
[11:37:28 PM] Prasand J.: it’s a reflection of value
[11:37:48 PM] Prasand J.: the more essential something is
[11:37:55 PM] Prasand J.: the more important it should be
[11:38:20 PM] Prasand J.: it’s a question that truly gets applied when we start building our values
[11:39:00 PM] Prasand J.: maybe you should just omit that question entirely
[11:39:28 PM] Prasand J.: ask it only if you can not be egotistical about it
[11:40:09 PM] Prasand J.: there is something you consistently do for others
[11:40:11 PM] Prasand J.: find it
[11:40:16 PM] Prasand J.: and see your role.
[11:41:02 PM] Prasand J.: I’m done.
[11:43:17 PM] Prasand J.: oh yeah, another thing I forgot @ value is
[11:43:31 PM] Prasand J.: “what am I willing to pay for that?”
[11:43:51 PM] Prasand J.: how much of ourselves we’re willing to give up for it
[11:44:01 PM] Prasand J.: is a reflection of how much we value it
[11:44:08 PM] Prasand J.: somewhere in there
[11:44:21 PM] Prasand J.: there will be conflicting value & worth
[11:44:28 PM] Prasand J.: aka
[11:44:32 PM] Prasand J.: some things
[11:44:39 PM] Prasand J.: you’ll find to be worth a hell of a lot
[11:44:45 PM] Prasand J.: but you’ll notice that in the past
[11:44:47 PM] Prasand J.: or now
[11:44:50 PM] Prasand J.: as you think about it
[11:44:57 PM] Prasand J.: you’re not willing to pay as much as it’s worth
[11:45:01 PM] Prasand J.: in that case
[11:45:07 PM] Prasand J.: either it really isn’t worth that much
[11:45:09 PM] Prasand J.: or
[11:45:19 PM] Prasand J.: your fear is not allowing you to pay the full value
[11:45:30 PM] Prasand J.: learn to pay what’s earned
[11:46:03 PM] Prasand J.: if something is worth everything, then be willing to pay for it by giving everything
[11:46:17 PM] Prasand J.: find the resolve
[11:46:28 PM] Prasand J.: and you’ll never regret anything
[11:46:53 PM] Prasand J.: oh yeah, that’s another benefit of sorting through your values
[11:47:08 PM] Prasand J.: you’ll never have any regrets if they are in order
[11:47:26 PM] Prasand J.: blar … gone.
Session Close (Ria Yoshida): Sun Nov 18 23:47:32 2007
My closing thoughts to you and anyone who reads this mail is … what is your time worth? Your love and affections? If you are worth something, should you spend yourself carelessly? Giving yourself, time, and priority to just any random person or one who’s not worth it to you? That doesn’t mean “be careful”, paranoia just hurts you. When one finds security they know the difference. If someone is worth something, why aren’t you spending? Just the same as, if you’re worth so much that you never spend yourself … either something’s broken with your perception, or you have a hell of a lot of worthless people in your life. Straighten it out, and upgrade your environment.
This may be the last convo.
Think about it for a bit, re-read it if you must. If you have questions, doubts, insecurities about it … ask / tell me. I’ll sort it through with you, if you deem me worthy … of you.
- Prasand J.
After having these conversations with Ria. I later found out that much of what I was depicting were stages in the Noble Eightfold Path as well as parts of the Four Noble Truths. So if you’d like to continue with it in depth, those may be potential starting points.